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38 Perfect Simulation

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The morning passed in silence. Anya ate all of her breakfast—she needed strength now. She tidied her corner methodically, folded the blanket neatly. Then she turned to the laptop as if to an old friend.

In the hidden volume she left a short, almost intimate note:

Today I woke up because the basement felt bright. Maybe that’s just my inner state. It’s strange, but I don’t feel like crying anymore. I can feel myself becoming part of this place, and it doesn’t scare me anymore. It… calms me.

She knew Viktor would read it, connect it to her calm behavior, and feel triumphant.

And she wasn’t wrong. When he came down at lunch, his movements were lighter, his voice softer.

By seven in the evening the heat had eased, leaving behind the thick scent of warmed earth and blooming jasmine. After dinner Viktor, as promised, took her out into the garden. He set her on the bench, and settled himself on the steps a little way off, turning garden shears in his hands.

Anya leaned back. The sun was slowly sinking behind the treetops, staining the garden in crimson-gold. She watched the fence’s shadow creep across the grass.

And suddenly she felt truly light.

For the first time in three months, the knot in her chest loosened. She no longer had to feverishly invent escape plans that would fail anyway. She no longer had to puzzle over why he had done it. She knew the magician’s secret. The magic was gone; only strings and hidden pockets remained.

I’ve got all the time in the world, she thought, and the thought was sweeter than any dessert.

You won’t get rid of me, Viktor. You’re too in love with your idea of me. And I’m not in a hurry. I’ll take you apart piece by piece while you keep watering my “roots.”

A soft, genuine smile came to her lips. It wasn’t a stretched mask of submission—it was pure pleasure in the knowledge of her own superiority.

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Viktor sensed the change, looked at her—and froze. He saw her smile: alive, real, lit by the sunset. For him it was the moment of the Architect’s absolute victory.

“Anya… you’re smiling,” he said quietly, afraid to scare the moment away. “What are you thinking about right now?”

Anya didn’t turn her head at once. She let the smile linger on her face a little longer before finally letting him see it.

“I just thought about how… cozy it is here.” Her voice sounded clear and calm. “You know, Viktor, it suddenly felt so good that there’s no rush here. No one demands anything, there’s nowhere to run. Just this garden, the linden trees, and silence. I think I’m only now starting to understand what you’ve been saying all this time. It… really heals.”

Viktor looked at her with almost religious reverence. He set the shears aside; his fingers clenched into fists on their own—he was trying to hold back his excitement.

“I knew it… I always knew you would understand. You just needed time to shake off the dust of outside life. Now you see the true essence.”

“Yes. I do,” she nodded meekly. “Thank you for not giving up on me when I was… unbearable.”

She turned back to the sunset, hiding the cold gleam in her eyes. She could feel how he warmed himself in the rays of her false transformation.

Hidden-volume note:

Today, in the garden, I caught myself smiling. Just like that.

It was a strange, almost forgotten feeling—when everything inside suddenly feels light. Before, I was always running somewhere, even inside four walls: planning, thrashing, waiting for some outside rescue. My mind was like a caged bird beating its wings bloody against the bars.

And today I watched the sunset and understood: all that noise is gone.

It felt so good to realize there’s endless time ahead. That I don’t have to rush anywhere anymore, don’t have to prove anything to a world that replaced me long ago. In that lack of choice, there was something deeply, almost strangely comforting…

I think I finally heard the silence Viktor talked about from the very beginning. It isn’t emptiness. It’s peace. I want to sit like this for hours, breathing this air in and watching plants grow. I smiled without even meaning to when I realized: I’m not fighting anymore. I simply am. And here, under his protection, simply existing feels safer than anything I’ve ever known.

She thought:

Eat it, you animal. Every word. You love lies? I’ll pour them down your throat. I’ll build your coffin out of your own ambitions. I’ll study every corner of your house. I’ll learn where you hide the keys, the codes, and your fears. You opened the garden door for me—now I’ll make you open the door to your life.

You play dirty, Viktor. But I’m the virus you installed in your own system. And by the time you realize it, it’ll be too late to wipe the system.